Thursday November 19, 2009

Today was not a good day. Ashley was completely exhausted all day long. She woke up feeling groggy and sick. She spent most of the day today laying in bed, resting. Her appetite was non-existant. This afternoon, she was feeling really chilled. When I felt her forehead to see if she had a fever, she felt warm to me. Her body was hurting. She did go take a bath and took some ibuprofin, which helped a little bit. Tonight it was all she could do to stay awake. The whole time we were reading scriptures, she laid on the couch with her eyes closed. She felt bad enough, she asked for morphine again. We did start that last night. She hasn't been sleeping as well, and would wake up in the night and couldn't fall back to sleep. She would have aches and pains, which didn't help matters. So the hospice nurse suggested we try a dose of morphine at bedtime to help her sleep better and not be in pain. Perhaps that was why she was so groggy today. I really have no idea. She didn't look well today. She was very puffy. Her color has been off. She looked very blue. Her fingers were dusky. For those of you who don't know, she now saturates in the low 70's, so when she turns gray, her blood oxygen levels are very low, sometimes reaching down in the the high 50's. It is very scary! She did oblige her mother today and wore her oxygen multiple times. Tonight she is plain miserable.

We did get our Christmas things up today. Ashley helped me as much as she could. It brought a smile to her face to see all the beautiful lights and Christmas tree. I was thankful something helped her to smile today. Keep praying for her. Days like today are so difficult!